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Thursday, July 30, 2009
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Last note: From SEPET by Yasmin Ahmad.
Orked?
Hmm?
How long do you think it takes to fall in love?
A minute. How long did it take to fall in love with me?
Much less than that.
Now, play that love song!
p/s:Yasmin Ahmad's stories are nice, sweet and simple. Watch it.
Orked?
Hmm?
How long do you think it takes to fall in love?
A minute. How long did it take to fall in love with me?
Much less than that.
Now, play that love song!
p/s:Yasmin Ahmad's stories are nice, sweet and simple. Watch it.
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Wednesday, July 29, 2009
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Hello everyone. Here I am. Still alive with pride and joy. I just want to say. Thanks to the people I love. You know who you are. Things would be the same after I vanish. I'll come back soon. Its a temporary runaway from my life. Getting things sorted out and getting myself back where I started. I want to feel. A moment to be real. But I would still be here. Its just that, I want to be the person I am. I want to know who I am. I want to feel the ups and downs of life. I'll try not to change, or maybe I would. Now, the present me, I'm not the person you see. I need to change. I need you. To help me. Find. Who I am. I'm choking myself. I'm making myself drown. I'm making myself fall to the ground. Shoot me before I die.
p/s:I'm not joking.
p/s:I'm not joking.
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Silly-corn slut!
Kiss my hot asss, Yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!
p/s: I'm lazy to post.
p/sp/s:Man, I'm having mix feelings.
p/sp/sp/s:I love having sugar-rush! Nice feeling.
Kiss my hot asss, Yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!
p/s: I'm lazy to post.
p/sp/s:Man, I'm having mix feelings.
p/sp/sp/s:I love having sugar-rush! Nice feeling.
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Tuesday, July 28, 2009
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WHO AM I TO YOU?
Man, I wish you would tell me.
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Heyyyy Hooooo Poeple!!
Today was boring as per normal. Hahahahahahahahahaha.
Went to school like normal. Went home w Chu, like normal.
And when we wanted to go out of school Faris scared Sri lorh.
Awwwwwwh, aint they sweet?
Hahaha, yeaaaaaah.
Man, B2 is sooo the damn the fucking the anonnying lorh.
Gosh! Cant take it anymore. You just want everything to go your way huh?
Yeaah, dream onn.
Hey.
Hey.
So how was your day.
It was boring.
Ohh really?
Yeah. So how was your then?
It was fine. Had 2 hours of art. So I was really happy. Haha.
Haha, glad to see you smile.
Thanks.
Its nice being with you right now.
Yeah. I dont want to go home. I feel safe with you.
Me too. Peter?
Yes?
Have you ever wondered about kissing.
About kissing?
Yeah. You know, kissing me. I mean, I had though about it and we have been friends for so long. I want to know what it feels like. I want to know what's our relationship.
Oh. *long pause. Lily?
Yeah?
I really love you and I had thought of kissing you too.
Oh.
Yeah.
See those lips? Its yours girl. Go get it. Oh, wow. It feels so good to feel his lips. Those smoot, pink, thin lips. Oh here comes his tounge. Oh, that felt nice. He looked beautiful. Full of flowers.
Here goes. Her lips, smooth, thick and red. Oh my God, she is so hot. She looks so beautiful, gorgeous! I feel so weak. Full of flowers.
p/s:AHMAD NURUL AMIRIL HAKIM! Faatin tak sad sad anymore:)
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Sunday, July 26, 2009
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Man, I feel suckish. Dang! I hate it. For two weeks. At the same time. Every night. I feel sad. I feel angry. I feel a big lump in my throat. My geee. I feel like hitting someone. I feel like hugging someone. I feel like crying. I feel so fuck right now. I feel like lying on a big green field. Close my eyes. And, just, fade, away. From your mind.
p/s:how can i believe you? Stupid blogger.
tender lips of snow
i felt like i was flying high
but i couldnt
the chains of fate
keeps me locked up
grounded to earth i must
i`ll stay here and watch you fly , darling
p/s:how can i believe you? Stupid blogger.
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Get to know me BETTER!
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education:
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
Your views on education:
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
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Saturday, July 25, 2009
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MOODY!
Help me please.
I think there's something wrong w me.
I've been moody at night for 3 weeks.
And i dont like it.
You said there's a conflict inside me.
I cant solve it.
I just cant.
I'm too weak.
Diluted.
I want to be angry.
Short-tempered.
But at the same time I want to be sad.
I want someone to embrace me.
I want to be happy.
I want to get excited.
I want to be angry.
I want to hit something.
I want to be sad.
I want to make mountains of tissue paper.
I want to be loved.
p/s:I'm just not the person you wanted me to be. I'm much more better.
No, I'm much more worst than what you wanted me to be.
I'm still here. I wonder who is the 'you'.
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Friday, July 24, 2009
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CAN I CRY NOW?
Hotasspants, follow me to the Sun.
Yeaah, sure.
Hotasspants, follow me to the Sun.
Yeaah, sure.
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SELAMAT HARI KEHARMUNIAN KAUM!
HAPPY RACIAL HARMONY DAY PEOPLES!
This year RHD was the greastest. Man, it rocked my colourful boxer out!
Did the activites which made me Oh-So tired.
Hahahah, but hard work paid off.
Took lots of pictures w funneh bunch of peeeps. And im sooo sad my camera spoilt.
F-Chu, i think those girls wants to be in the B group. Well, let's welcome them in.
My geeee, who do they think they are? My nenek? *Grandmother. My Grandma much more hot uh eh.
What stare stare? I know lahh we both look soo hot. Gosh, go makeover lah, then we'll stare back at you okay?
Man, get some brain lahh. I think there's a bazaar near minds selling those things. I think the cheapest is 0.000001 cents.
Hahahahahhahahaha. Come onn lahh. Have some goood and positive attitude. Im done.
The muteness of the quite night. The Moon smiled at us. And we gazed apon it. I felt your skin underneath me. You faced me, i faced you. Your sweet smell of matureness, i felt weak by your smile. It made my legs felt like jelly and i could eat it all up. Im hearing love songs. Oh my God. What was i thinking. He's hot, thats one. Sure, but he loves her. He is your friend, close friend. Let's just be close friends, can? Yeaaaah, that would be great. You spilt your arms and moved froward. Oh my God, here goes. Into the world of fantasies.
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Tuesday, July 21, 2009
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OLD FRIEND MEETs A NEW OLD FRIEND! 
L.o.v.e. your old hair actually. Man, you've change and getting more childish.
I like that. When old friend meets a new old friend:RANDOMNESS.
i cannot see that.
haha, see what?
see "that".
? what lesbian pr*n?
hahahaha! no larhh it was your previous pm.
hahah. yeahh i know. cant believe you watched pr*n. its not good okay?
hahahaused to"used".
haiyo.im soo scare of prople watching pr*n. because they would like imagine us w/o clothes.
o.o iseee haha! not really. usually..all guys would alrdy imagine. even the nerds. nerds are the worst.
omgeeeeeeeeee. did you imagine me just now? omgeeee. idiots.
LOL. noooo. i didnt okayy. my mind was full of candy and sugar
ohh, why?
cause my mind is like a CANDY MOUNTAIN!
ohh really? haha, then my ass is a shit mountain!
nono. not shit mountain. chocolate factory. FBT =Factory buat taik
uhhhhh. hahahahahaha. assss sia.
see the girls wearing them. hahaha !semua factory buat taik. >__<>
p/s: oh yeah you still have the cute chubby cheeks haha forget to tell just now
L.o.v.e. your old hair actually. Man, you've change and getting more childish.
I like that. When old friend meets a new old friend:RANDOMNESS.
i cannot see that.
haha, see what?
see "that".
? what lesbian pr*n?
hahahaha! no larhh it was your previous pm.
hahah. yeahh i know. cant believe you watched pr*n. its not good okay?
hahahaused to"used".
haiyo.im soo scare of prople watching pr*n. because they would like imagine us w/o clothes.
o.o iseee haha! not really. usually..all guys would alrdy imagine. even the nerds. nerds are the worst.
omgeeeeeeeeee. did you imagine me just now? omgeeee. idiots.
LOL. noooo. i didnt okayy. my mind was full of candy and sugar
ohh, why?
cause my mind is like a CANDY MOUNTAIN!
ohh really? haha, then my ass is a shit mountain!
nono. not shit mountain. chocolate factory. FBT =Factory buat taik
uhhhhh. hahahahahaha. assss sia.
see the girls wearing them. hahaha !semua factory buat taik. >_
p/s: oh yeah you still have the cute chubby cheeks haha forget to tell just now
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Sunday, July 19, 2009
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How-do-you-do?
Well, these past few daytimes I've been bettering my English.
Searching for synonyms and similarity of words.
Well, Kobeeez told me the short story was good.
And so, I'm going to improve it.
It has been almost 21 days and now i have it!
The picture of my baby kitten! Hahaha.
Er was pregnant with Speedy's child. And its damn cute btw.
The first baby died because he's leg was handicap. But he lasted one day with his mother.
Then there's the second kitten, its a boy. Third was a girl, very nice fur colour btw.
Wish he could see it. Hmmm.
p/s: Aite she cute? Hope you're reading this because it meant everything to Er.
Well, these past few daytimes I've been bettering my English.
Searching for synonyms and similarity of words.
Well, Kobeeez told me the short story was good.
And so, I'm going to improve it.
It has been almost 21 days and now i have it!
The picture of my baby kitten! Hahaha.
Er was pregnant with Speedy's child. And its damn cute btw.
The first baby died because he's leg was handicap. But he lasted one day with his mother.
Then there's the second kitten, its a boy. Third was a girl, very nice fur colour btw.
Wish he could see it. Hmmm.
p/s: Aite she cute? Hope you're reading this because it meant everything to Er.
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Saturday, July 18, 2009
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Ni kite, tu awak.
Today was the greatest. I had an entertaining day.
We watched Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince.
I was grining all the way back home. People were staring at me, but who cares right?
I remembered, it was crowded. Even though you're far away, I could feel your presents. Your face was confuse, and I giggled. I was uttering something with her, I wasnt facing towards you but I knew you were watching me. Every single movement I did, it made you grinned. Sure enough people were staring at you, and you felt awkward.
Girls. Tall and short. Skinny and fat. All those girls were watching us. Following our move as we walked together. I recalled you ignoring every different eyes that were gazing at us. You held my hands as though there's nothing wrong with it. I felt awkward.
Let me recollect the ending. We were seating at back of the bus. You started playing your 'Doom III', I sat there staring out the window. You were beside me, I could smelled you, your manly perfume. It made me warm, happy and i grinned. You stared at me, your eyes. We gazed into each others eyes. Pitch black, mysterious. We felt awkward.
p/s: kite sayang awak. And kite confuse.
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Thursday, July 16, 2009
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Get a hold of yourself, says him. Let's see. He's tall and skinny. Like as though I could use his body as a stick to support myself while climbing up Mt Everest. I cant, cant you see? I just cant. That common voice I've always heard. And I realised that it was me! I dont even recognised myself anymore.
I'm seeing myself from the outside. I was burying my face into my hands. No, you can. I know you can. I believe in you, he said. I looked up, and saw his blue ocean eyes, it made me feel like jumping into his eyes and swim till I drown. I felt weak and warm at the same time. I looked away, thinking.
Who is he? Who is he to me? Why is he here? I looked at him again and that soft skin. That complexion. Then something hit me, I dont know whether its a rock or a stone you choose, he's you. I feel really weak now, I feel warm at the same time. Now I want to run away from all my feelings. Those weird funny feelings.
He's staring at me now, I guess he's wondering why am I frowning. I thought to myself, I need to take action or else I'm stuck here. I need to go now. I need to be alone. I need to get away from all those feelings. I said firmly. I was surpise with myself because I could pick up myself again. I stood up, saw his legs a looked at him.
I saw it, the full view. You looked beautiful even though you're a guy. You smiled, with dimples on your cheeks. You said, tomorrow all will be beautiful. A wise man with few words.
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Tuesday, July 14, 2009
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Omygeeee those bitches are pain in the asss.
Pain like as in when you want to berak and those little tiny taiks dont want to come out.
Those taiks are those bitch lahh siol!
Haha. Faa-ah-tin mood swings lahh sehhss.
Sorry uhh. But i cant stand those two un-original girls who are so annoying.
Somemore pain in the asss. Hahaha, F3 confirm agrees w me.
And to them, get some originality and ill salute you.
Friendly advise, dont get into people nerves because you'll be spreading viruses into their bloodstream.
Feel like smacking them on the head. Haha.
Ill smack bitch number one and F3 smack bitch number 2.
You know who.
Well enough of that. I aite following my parents to jb.
Lazy, and thats good news for F3.
Man, i miss F1. Seriously siot. Hais.
Today was suppose to do malay drama. Unfortunately Al-Afeq-Cool-Larh is sick.
So its postpone to Thursday.
Today i went back w F3 and we talked all the way about B1 and B2.
And we were damn pissed off w them.
Such idiots who are soo ARGH! Whaever lahh minahs.
And those two minahs just now.
Kiss my asss lahhh!
"ohh really. Mine bigger siot. 36B sia!"
Jangan terase uh eh sape sape pat lua tu.
Im not talking about you lahh B!
p/s:i like my p/s notes lahh sehhsss. Ily F1:]
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Mend a broken heart.
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
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You know what?
This book can really mend you heart, Tomorrow all will be Beautiful, by Brigid Lowry.
Yeahh yeahh Faa-Ah-Tin reads books.
Well, if its a good book then what the heck ryte?
There's this one chapter which is good.
Title:How To Mend A Broken Heart.
Keep busy, Bella, said my grandmother, you must keep busy.
How can he have done this to you, asks my sister? You're so beautiful, she says, as if lust or happiness or loneliness were influenced by beauty. You can borrow my lipstick, she adds, my good necklace, my white shirt, anything you fancy as long as you dont get it dirty.
Plenty of fish in the sea, siad my father, a sensible man of few words.
You must eat properly, said my mother.
My grandfather syas nothing, but at evening he sits w me on the verandah until mosquitoes and stars come dancing out. I toll his cigarettes for him from a thin of dark tobacco, fragrant shreds poking out of the neat, white twists. He plays a tango for me on his piano accordion, the tattoos of all the women he has loved and lost fading on his wrinkled, hairy arms.
Ever so quietly my heart begins to mend.
p.s: But somehow its hard for me to mend my tiny litte heart.
This book can really mend you heart, Tomorrow all will be Beautiful, by Brigid Lowry.
Yeahh yeahh Faa-Ah-Tin reads books.
Well, if its a good book then what the heck ryte?
There's this one chapter which is good.
Title:How To Mend A Broken Heart.
Keep busy, Bella, said my grandmother, you must keep busy.
How can he have done this to you, asks my sister? You're so beautiful, she says, as if lust or happiness or loneliness were influenced by beauty. You can borrow my lipstick, she adds, my good necklace, my white shirt, anything you fancy as long as you dont get it dirty.
Plenty of fish in the sea, siad my father, a sensible man of few words.
You must eat properly, said my mother.
My grandfather syas nothing, but at evening he sits w me on the verandah until mosquitoes and stars come dancing out. I toll his cigarettes for him from a thin of dark tobacco, fragrant shreds poking out of the neat, white twists. He plays a tango for me on his piano accordion, the tattoos of all the women he has loved and lost fading on his wrinkled, hairy arms.
Ever so quietly my heart begins to mend.
p.s: But somehow its hard for me to mend my tiny litte heart.
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Im losing it!
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
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AHHHHH! CAN SOMEONE EFFING HELP ME?!
No F3, F-CHU. Im not gg to call 911. It wont work.
If i do call 911, this would happen:
F1:Hey can you help me?
911:Sure, what can we help you?
F1:Well you see im having problems w myself. I dont know who i lov...
911 hangs up on F1.
Great!
That is just really great.
Oh whatever je lahh.
I dont want to care about this anymore.
But i just can't help it thinking.
I just needed something to let out my heart.
But guess what? Blog just takes part of the hurt away.
Now, there's a big lump in my throat. Choke me and ill just cough it out.
Do it!
Its stewwpid. Really Stewwpid. Damn it.
p/s:do you realise something? im losing it and no one notices it. Is it because im always making funny jokes that underneath me, im hurting. And all these tiny humans comes into my life and ruin it. I dont like you, so dont disturb me. Im sooo gg into a mental breakdown ryte. I wanna cry but no one is sharing their shoulder. Im losing it.
No F3, F-CHU. Im not gg to call 911. It wont work.
If i do call 911, this would happen:
F1:Hey can you help me?
911:Sure, what can we help you?
F1:Well you see im having problems w myself. I dont know who i lov...
911 hangs up on F1.
Great!
That is just really great.
Oh whatever je lahh.
I dont want to care about this anymore.
But i just can't help it thinking.
I just needed something to let out my heart.
But guess what? Blog just takes part of the hurt away.
Now, there's a big lump in my throat. Choke me and ill just cough it out.
Do it!
Its stewwpid. Really Stewwpid. Damn it.
p/s:do you realise something? im losing it and no one notices it. Is it because im always making funny jokes that underneath me, im hurting. And all these tiny humans comes into my life and ruin it. I dont like you, so dont disturb me. Im sooo gg into a mental breakdown ryte. I wanna cry but no one is sharing their shoulder. Im losing it.
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Monday, July 6, 2009
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Hey Hoo Tiny Humans!
At last today i get to watch Transformer 2 w Radiah and Naufal.
Went to Bishan, and had a lot of laughs w Naufal.
Ohh, bring back memories. Good&Bad ones.
Well, we have to move on right?
Oh! He msg-ed me lahh sehh.
AHHHHHH! *runs around the stadium and roll on the field and kissing my phone*
Hahaha.
Yeaaaah, he's sick. Get well soon ehh. Heh.
Miss you:] *what?! Hahahahahahahahaha. Im talking shit here.
Gosh! smile smile.
Get well dudessssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.
WRONG!
Man, i miss him. I have no idea why. And im hating it.
But at the same time, Oh, i dont know.
Can anyone help me? Seriously. F betol.
Gosh! What am i thinking.
This is sooooo effing confusing.
HELP?
At last today i get to watch Transformer 2 w Radiah and Naufal.
Went to Bishan, and had a lot of laughs w Naufal.
Ohh, bring back memories. Good&Bad ones.
Well, we have to move on right?
Oh! He msg-ed me lahh sehh.
AHHHHHH! *runs around the stadium and roll on the field and kissing my phone*
Hahaha.
Yeaaaah, he's sick. Get well soon ehh. Heh.
Miss you:] *what?! Hahahahahahahahaha. Im talking shit here.
Gosh! smile smile.
Get well dudessssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.
WRONG!
Man, i miss him. I have no idea why. And im hating it.
But at the same time, Oh, i dont know.
Can anyone help me? Seriously. F betol.
Gosh! What am i thinking.
This is sooooo effing confusing.
HELP?
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Friday, July 3, 2009
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Heyy Peeeeeeeeeeeps!
Secondly, Thanks Radiah and Syaza for helping me cook.
Thirdly, Im Oh-So tired.
Heh.
Soo, school was as usual boring.
But i like Art period. Heh.
Im starting to like painting. Oh-So FUN!
Today was funneh giler sehhsss.
Syaza wanted to cook her pizza. Then da bagus cook for 5 minutes, she asked me to cook for another 2 more minutes.
Then the there was smoke coming out of my microwave and its BURNT!
Hahaha. Radiah took a picture of it.
Funneh gila lahh that girl.
Tomorrow im gg jogging w Diana and Hamizah.
So bye peeeeeps!
p/s:Happy Birthday Mummeh. Hope you like what i did.
p/sp/s: Im missing you. i think. I dont know. Dont ask. Hate you, F!
Firstly, Happy Birthday My Beloved Mummeh! :D
Secondly, Thanks Radiah and Syaza for helping me cook.
Thirdly, Im Oh-So tired.
Heh.
Soo, school was as usual boring.
But i like Art period. Heh.
Im starting to like painting. Oh-So FUN!
Today was funneh giler sehhsss.
Syaza wanted to cook her pizza. Then da bagus cook for 5 minutes, she asked me to cook for another 2 more minutes.
Then the there was smoke coming out of my microwave and its BURNT!
Hahaha. Radiah took a picture of it.
Funneh gila lahh that girl.
Tomorrow im gg jogging w Diana and Hamizah.
So bye peeeeeps!
p/s:Happy Birthday Mummeh. Hope you like what i did.
p/sp/s: Im missing you. i think. I dont know. Dont ask. Hate you, F!
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